The plight of the fair skin sista

I consider myself to be fair skin. I don’t think I’m light (compared to my family). I know I’m not brown (unless I go to like Florida or Mexico, the sun down there makes my skin overly golden). I’m not yellow (I have too many other hues to pull that off).Nor am I red (unless it’s in the middle of summer).  So yes I consider myself to be fair skin.

In October we took school pictures. Yes, teachers have to take them for yearbook purposes and they always give us a few to pass out if we so choose. I didn’t like the first ones I took so I decided to take retakes. Now, I forgot about the pictures so per usual I came to school without applying make- up.  Stacy comes to my room and says, “Are you ready for your retakes?” I am immediately distraught because even though I think I’m very pretty, my mac studio fix enhances my God given beauty. So we’re trying to think of whose powder I can use (there aren’t many Blacks at my place of employment). So we agree upon my principal but she’s not in the office yet. So we’re telling to the bookkeeper my dilemma and she just so happens to have the whole make-up counter with her. Just in case you’re wondering my bookkeeper is not Black; she’s Latina. So I take her powder and it works! So now not only are my Black friends making fun of me for my color my non-Black friends are telling me I need to go tanning. 

Anyhow, so the other day I was examining my pictures taken in October thinking they’re not so bad. And I look super brown, which is always a plus in my book! Well, today I get the retakes back (that I took the first of the month). The first thing that jumps out at me is how light skin I look in the picture! Are you serious!?! Am I really that pale!?!? What concerns me more is does my make-up match my skin anymore!?!? Am I walking around with my face and neck a different color!?!? If so why hasn’t anyone said anything to me??? I don’t wear make-up enough to have a winter compact and a summer compact. I mean I guess it’s a good thing I only wear make-up when I go out. Most times those occasions call for dimly lit settings. But what happens when I have to go somewhere in the middle of the day?? Or if I’m going somewhere that’s well lit?? If I so happen to commit this offense I hope someone is kind enough to pull me to the side and let me know. Oh the plight of the fair skin sista!